Lately I'm not very sure what to feel or how I should feel. As I said in my previous article, I haven't been feeling so very happy the past few months, due multiple reasons. But it's not like I feel totally depressed or something. Since November last year I'd always felt quite okay. I sort of got rid of my major insecurity issue back then and decided to accept the fact I am just a very introverted person. In February certain things happened which basically made me super happy and then from March on, certain things started to go down again. Such a pity. Over the summer I felt quite happy as well, although something had happened again and for some miracle reason I managed to block all my feelings and so I felt mostly very 'neutral'; neither happy, nor sad. Then when school started, all my feelings apparently had to come out and so I started feeling so depressed it literally scared me. Luckily that feeling only lasted for a few days. I think I could say that, since that time, I have been feeling 'neutral' again. It's not like I am intentionally blocking my feelings again, it's just that I don't feel anything particular most of the time. And some moments I get sad and other moments I get very happy and excited for life.

Although this week is a bit boring, I have some things coming up that make me really excited. A couple of weeks ago, I made the very good decision to meet up with an old friend of mine, whom I hadn't seen for over a year. We stopped being friends, because of a stupid fight, but when we spent some hours drinking coffee and eating pie in Rotterdam in the evening, it felt like we never stopped being friends.  No matter what happens, apparently I will always feel like I can trust this girl with all my heart and the fact we grew together again after such a long time, only proves how strong our friendship was(/is). I'm so happy I made friends again. We have planned to go out sometime, which is the first thing I am really excited for. We'll look slay and dance and have fun and meet new people (*ahum* boys, duh). I can't wait!